Malam Aidilfitri...

Its now 3.52am, 1st Oct or 1st Syawal… skrang ni aku kat rumah tumpangan cik zul (pakcik daus) ngan anip ngan daus, 2 2 tgh lena tido dlm kegelapan malam sbb takde letrik. Asal takde letrik, wa pun taktau… kenape mlm syawal im not with my family kat sg.penchala (kampungku) ? sbb aku nak kena amik dea kat klia at 6am on the 1st syawal, she will be flying in from melbourne,Australia. Actually she is not coming home for the 3rd time to celebrate raya with us, it is my idea to bring her home coz I feel like it. I’ve decided to do so when I receive my first salary late in the September. I never did give it a second thought actually, mayb because im xcited from my first payment. I just wanna make this raya special by gathering all my siblings. I don’t know what r my parents reaction will b actually, especially my father. It is bad enough that im disappearing during the raya eve plus not answering the phone call from both my parents. I know it wont go smooth especially with my father. He got this really2 bad temper when he is not in control of things.getting back to the stories, the original plan was to make a surprise to all my family with dea welcoming homes, but unfortunately dea gi bgtau adamm pasal plan ni n so there r 2 mastermind in this dirty little secret, huhu… o0o0o0o the reason why im disappearing is because, somehow I got the feelings that if I stay at sg.penchala, the chances for me to go and pick-up dea from klia at 6am would be very2 slim and that’s why I decided to go this way n I know that my parents will b outrageous t’row. Not knowing what to come, I don’t hope much whats going to happen t’row even with dea present. On the contrary I should have discuss this matter with adamm first cause it would involve him too. When I got a msg from adamm earlier, he told me that both my parents r very2 angry n as always it would be my father. He also told me that mama got the worst side of it, because my father don’t have anyone else to blame, she will get all the splash. I don’t really know whats wrong with my parents, it just seem to me that they care to much, mayb because they r still young n want to get involve in all the matters pertaining their children. I don’t blame them for that n actually im very2 lucky to have that kind of parents who bout their children, but when things are too much it kinda ‘serabut’ when u r trying to build ur own live n something getting in the way, I don’t know about u guys out there but to me it got to stop before something worse happen. Not saying that Im good enough to be by myself but things change n something u just have to let it go for it to expand and develop. Hopefully that im not doing the wrong things that I will regrets later. I love my family especially my mama, I’ve seen what she has gone thru all this years n yet she still strong… I really hope that I will get the same girl that one day will be my wife, who will always stay by my side no matter what like my mama…

Selamat Hari Raya, maaf zahir & batin…